31 Mar 10 - 08 Apr 10

Thursday, April 8, 2010 11:26 AM

Okay everyone, this week is going to be a little different. I'm
writing this first so that I can spend as much time writing to my
friend's mom as possible. This lady seems to think that I am a plague
on this earth that should be disposed of. She thinks that I am a
threat to everything that is good and decent and pure and righteous
about her daughter and that I should go back to Hell from whence I
spawned from.

This is something I need to settle. I did not start this war but I
sure as Heaven am going to try and finish it.

I've met and befriended hundreds of individuals over the course of my
lifetime. I've been adopted into so many families that I've long since
stopped counting (cause the list keeps growing, even out here in the
mission) because I just become one of the family. I've been there for
anyone who's ever needed me and I've put my love into everyone as
though they were my blood family. I don't play with people's lives. I
don't seek to destroy anyone's soul. If I can, I try to embrace
everyone as if I haven't seen them for a really long time, like how I
think Heavenly Father gives hugs.

This is who I am. If anyone out there can call me out on this, please
do so. Because if I am the kind of man this lady makes me out to be,
then why am I even on a mission?

I don't think there is anyone out there who knows me like a brother,
son, or friend who can do so. Not from what I've seen. Not from who I
know.

If I may ask for those who believe this as I do to email me, I would
much appreciate it. Anyone whom I've affected or touched, or helped,
or impressed, or influenced in any way. I get the feeling I may need
the testimonies of others in the near future if after my mission this
woman decides to press charges (and yes, I'm serious).

On a lighter note, I would like to take some time to thank some people
who hardly ever hear it from me starting with my mom.

Mommy, I know that a lot of times it was difficult to raise a child
as... stubborn as I was. I know many times you wanted to just slap me
around if only to knock some sense into me. I know you worried more
often than not about where my actions would put me in the future. I
know you tried so hard to be strong in front of me and tried to never
let me see you cry. I'm sorry I disappointed you on occasion.

But thank you. Thank you for raising me to the best of your ability.
Thank you for raising me in the gospel. Thank you for trying to give
me what I needed most. You've influenced me for the better. You taught
me correct principles. Without you, I wouldn't have so many people who
support me, and care for me, and can't wait for me to come home.
Without you, I wouldn't have even been born!

To sum it all up...

Proud of your boy
I'll make you proud of your boy
Believe me, bad as I've been
Ma you're in for a pleasent surprise
I've wasted time
I've wasted me
So say I'm slow for my age
A late bloomer, okay, I agree
That I've been one rotten kid,
Some son, some pride, and some joy
But I'll get over these lousin' up
Messin' up, screwin' up times
You'll se, Ma, now comes the better part
Someone's gonna make good
Cross his stupid heart
Make good and finally make you
Proud of your boy
Tell me that I've been a louse and a loafer
You won't get a fight here, no ma'am
Say I'm a goldbrick, a goof-off, no good
But that couldn't be all that I am
Water flows under the bridge
Let it pass, let it go
There's no good reason that you should believe me
Not yet, I know, but
Someday and soon
I'll make you proud of your boy
Though I can't make myself taller
Or smarter or handsome or wise
I'll do my best, what else can I do?
Since I wasn't born perfect like Dad or you
Mom, I will try to
Try hard to make you
Proud of your boy

Clay Aiken - Proud of Your Boy

Daddy, I know you've never trusted me to do anything right. I don't
mean that in a negative way. After all, I've never really shown you
that I could do anything right. I've never applied myself like you
wanted me to. I've never shown responsibility of any sort. I don't
blame you for not trusting me.

I know that you've had a different childhood growing up and that
you've always tried to give me what you've never had (sometimes at the
expense of Mommy's anger). I know that you didn't really know how to
talk to me. More often than not, when we tried we would always yell.
So we learned not to talk at all.

I want to tell you that I'm sorry I didn't have enough patience to try
and understand you. I'm sorry I never took the time to get to know
you. I always took, took, took and you always gave, gave, gave. I was
selfish and inconsiderate and I'm sorry.

I look up to you though. I've watched you even when you never thought
I would. I've seen people mock you behind your back and lie to your
face but none of that mattered as long as someone noticed and
complimented you on your talents. You seemed to live for these moments
and I could see you glow when it happened.

Daddy, you've taught me how even though the world tries to bring us
down, we can just ignore it. You were the one who taught me to do
what's right when no one else will. You showed me that as long as we
do the best that we can, we've done more than those that just sit back
and do nothing.

To all those that mock my parents, pardon my language but screw you.
They are some of the greatest people I will EVER know. Without them, I
would not be me or who I am. I know that there are those out there who
will never read this but I state this anyways: if I hear anyone mock
or talk bad about those that I love I will straight up punch you in
the face. I've learned how to do that. NO ONE talks bad about anyone I
care about in front of me. So learn to "Nay Speak No Ill" cause if you
harm me for doing what's right, I've got hundreds of others who will
back me up.

I make this promise: when I get home, I'm going to do a solo for my
dad for my homecoming talk. I also make this promise: when it's in my
means, I'm going to buy a place where my WHOLE family can live and I
will support them if they can't do so themselves (friends included).

Like Gandhi said, "be the change you want to see in the world." Like
it or not, I'm going to change the world, even if it's only one
person's world. I'm tired of waiting for everyone else to change
things. That means I've got to change.

As far as my mission goes, I'm once again in a different area called
the Cannon Stake (don't know where it is cause I'm brand new to the
area). I'm once again back in the English Program (glory hallelujah!)
and my new comp is Elder Shriver. He's my District Leader (I'm DLC or
DLA or whatever you call it. Just not DLB... District Leader's B.....)
He was my DL in the MTC so this'll be an interesting transfer.

I love everyone out there (some of you more than others). Take care,
don't die, live well, eat [healthy delicious foods that will provide
you with energy to last throughout the day]!

Elder Garcia

P.S. Ask my mom if you want my myldsmail (although it shouldn't be too
hard to figure it out since it's also my yahoo and gmail name as
well...)

P.S.S. This is a fish -> >*{{{v===€
I ate him and now I'm sad :*(

(Note from Mom: Son, I could never be disappointed in you. I'm so proud of you and all you have accomplished in your life! I love you for Eternity!)