17 Mar 10 - 25 Mar 10

Thursday, March 25, 2010 11:38 a.m.

So I know last week I was rambling a lot. That might be expected every now and then since outside influences tend to cloud my judgement. One good thing to rejoice about is that transfers isn't too far away and I'll be free from... those outside influences.

There's a lot of things that I've realized lately that I most likely wouldn't have had I not been in the Spanish Program. There's this lady named Nuvia who likes to mock me a lot. Last time I was over at her house, I refused to be mocked anymore. I knew that she wasn't doing it to be rude, but it wasn't good all the same. So my companion chastizes me and tells me that that's just how spanish people are. Well last night I had a talk with him and I told him that I don't care if that's how spanish people are. I was being made fun of and I wasn't just going to sit there and take it. I was told that by never having stood up for myself before, I was in part hurting my Savior because others were hurting me. Jesus Christ not only took upon Himself all my sins, He took upon Himself all my pains and hurts as well. I don't want to hurt my Savior so I'm going to stand up for what's right. Even if no one else will. People can mock me all they want. I'm just not going to be around them when they do.

One thing that's been getting to me a lot lately is hypocrites. I seem to have become a firm believer in "lead by example." Even though I don't want others following me, I seem to get people following me anyways. I know I've told several people what I think a leader is. A leader isn't someone who has power. A leader is someone who others will follow. A leader is also someone who does what's right when no one else will. So if I'm a leader of men (which I don't think I am) then what kind of example am I setting when I don't always "play by the rules" or only when it's convenient for me? Why do others follow me when I wouldn't even follow myself? So sadly I've had to realize that I can't deny certain things... like I'm a stereotypical hero-type personality. So what do I do? I need to ch... cha... ... ... ... ... ... ... change...

Poopy.

So even though it stinks to high Heaven, I need to be more obedient. But on the bright side, "There is a law irrevocably decreed in heaven before the foundations of this world upon which all blessings are predicated. And when we obtain any blessing from God, it is upon that law upon which it was predicated."

I should be high rolling from here on out.

Later everyone.

Elder Garcia